Daily Prompt

Why I HESITATE to be the best version of myself.

via Daily Prompt: Hesitate

Being your authentic self is scary.  What if people judge you?  What if your authentic self isn’t that interesting.  What if you put yourself out there and nothing happens.  Welcome to a day in my head.  I have so many things I want to do.  I want to be a fitness instructor, personal trainer, successful blogger and Thrive promoting extraordinaire.  I take the beginner steps and get super stoked about all the goals I’m going to crush and then, when I don’t get the immediate response I am looking for I shrink back into myself and the self-doubt sets in.  I get depressed and angry for being stupid and thinking I can do these things and I once again condemn myself to the thankless life of an assistant.  Self-doubt is toxic.  It can envelope me in a pool of self-pity faster than I can uncork a bottle of wine to drown my sorrows in.

Today is the first day of a new month.  I woke up hating myself for the way I let February sabotage all my great ideas, and decided to set some goals for myself.  I feel good in this minute while writing this sentence, and I’m hoping to take this day, month and year one tiny second at a time.